Rare Sighting

After watching the coverage of Winona Ryder at the SAG awards I decided to watch Stranger Things. Last night we watched the end of the first season, and as I was jumping up and down, pacing the room, compulsively eating cough drops, I looked at my husband and said, "What the fuck did we start watching this for? You're probably going to be called away on a work trip tomorrow, and I'll spend all night staring at the wall, praying a monster doesn't come out of it."

I'm a scaredy cat, so it's better if I just live in a world where I don't think of freaky shit and monsters. Honestly, this keeps me from even wanting to read the newspaper. Being afraid of the dark was possibly a driving force for getting married. Definitely a good reason to make things serious after just a couple months of knowing someone. On the surface I'll say, "Oh, yes we decided to move in together. Sure I don't know what his mother's name is or his credit score, but lets just say were doing it because it's nice to split rent and utilities, and not because I'm comforted by the presence of a warm body."

You know when you're about to fall asleep, and then in your head, hear someone scream your name really loud (this is normal, I Googled it to show you!) and then you jump from drifting off to sleep to wide awake? Well, I need someone next to me after that happens. Otherwise, I'll lay there and break out in a cold sweat.

Im happy to finished the season, and in the end it was good, but still freaky. I don't need to be thinking about the dangers that live amongst us in alternate dimensions. The other week I was on Amazon Prime, and came across some videos on Astral Projection. While I was watching, I thought it was interesting how the host was giving guidance on how to astral project, but never once said why one would astral project. Thats what I would like to know, what do you gain from astral projection? (My next Google adventure). The host did say, you should be educated before making the mental trek out-of-body because you can come across dangerous things in the astral plane. I took that as my, you-can-just-sit-this-out-honey.

In real life scary news, my daughter woke up Sunday with a rash, that turned into terrifying full-body hives by Monday. After going to the doctor and getting medication, she went from my pink leopard, to a girl with spots, and today she just has a couple bumps left.

On Monday, after we got back from the doctor, I was overcome with adrenaline from all the stress, mainly, what the hell is going on with my kid, and is she ever going to be normal again. I used this energy to clean the house. While I cleaned, I checked on her every couple minutes and ate all the candy I bought to give out as Valentine's gifts. After counting the calories of the pile of trash, I needed a tissue to cry into because I stress ate like 2000 calories of chocolate. She didn't really have an appetite, but I kept making her food, and as she'd reject it, I'd eat it that too.

The body is a fucking crazy thing. She was put on a steroid which made her sleep and eat patterns a bit off. Yesterday morning, at 4 am, wide awake, she started asking me about Queen Elizabeth. She wanted to know, "Does the queen live forever, like Santa Claus?"
"Nope, she doesn't Kiki. Can we go back to sleep?"
"But I'm starving!"
After 30 minutes of her telling me how she is starving, and asking why her mother would want her to starve, I got out of bed to bring her back a short stack of salami.

My husband was also taken out, but by a vicious cold. When he is sick I actually have to give myself morning pep talks not to be mean to him because it does get me a bit raw that he indulges in "bed rest," and I will never understand the luxury. So when I pass the room and see him "resting" I shoot daggers at him with my eyes. However, this time it was his birthday, so I really made an effort to be compassionate, and it worked! Mind over matter! Maybe I'm more equipped for this visit to the astral plane than I'm giving myself credit for. And I can surely handle some nights by myself. After this week, and the bed rest, it'd probably do me some good.